My first sex doll experience

It's funny, ten or fifteen years ago I knew about Real Dolls, but they were about $5,000 - not in my budget. I forgot about them and I don't know if I thought about them since then until about nine months ago when I searched for sex dolls online and I was shocked to find that there are a lot of manufacturers and the dolls are becoming very realistic, beautiful (in my opinion), and now affordable. And they also have all kinds of styles of dolls with big boob sex dolls, Japanese sex dolls, anime sex dolls, curvy sex dolls, etc.

So I started shopping around just for fun and then quickly turned into a doll twist (bloodthirsty). After a lot of research, I finally picked one out and ordered it about two weeks ago. She came in a few days ago and I couldn't wait to open the box and see what she looked like and see how the TPE (thermoplastic elastomer, a silicone like material that supposedly feels very much like real life skin) felt after looking at these dolls online for months. I perked up because I was worried I would be disappointed with her appearance or how she felt. When I opened the box, I was stunned at first glance at the beauty of her body; amazing detail. I looked at her face and she was very cute. When I opened her package, the first part I touched was a calf and I was amazed at how real it felt - just like human skin, the way the skin moved like human skin, muscles and fat were shaking. Wow!

At this point, I have to say that when someone first touches or handles TPE sex dolls, there are a few things that shock them: their heads are removed, so you open a 5-foot-5-inch box and see a headless body. Then you find the body is cold - amazingly cold. Then you try to take her out of the box. Oooooh! I read that these dolls are heavy, but I had no idea what I was doing. I read ahead of time on the website what she weighed; she was 75 lbs. So if a real woman of the same height and build weighs about 125 pounds, then this should be a breeze, right? Nope! Carrying a real woman newlywed style is different; they balance their weight with their arms around your neck - they can help you to some extent. This 5'6" (she's taller than me, which is kind of cute), 75 lb. doll was very difficult to move - far more than I thought!

Unfortunately, you can't just take your beautiful, brand new doll into the bedroom to start the romance - you have some work to do: you need to take the lifeless, headless, cold, heavy body to the shower and clean it up with soap and warm water to create chemicals. Getting that body to the shower was so hard, I hardly know how I did it. I've had chronic back problems since my 20s, I sprained my knee not too long ago and it will never fully heal, and I recently recovered from hernia surgery.

I've been trying to figure out how to make it easier for her to move . I've been thinking about getting her some roller skates and carefully guiding her around. That was either pure genius or so stupid that I would post a message when she landed on me, I couldn't get up and after hours of struggling I screamed for help and the paramedics, police and firemen all rushed to my face and burst through the door to help me only to find me pinned to the bathroom floor under a hot, naked sex doll. Now that's the stuff of urban legends.

I decided that the easiest way to remove the chemicals was to shower with a headless body, so that's what I did. While it was strange and disturbing, I made some wonderful discoveries about TPE: it heats up quickly (especially in a warm shower), retains heat, dries like human skin (some towel wipes off and air drying takes care of the rest - it air dries in minutes just like our skin does), and feels great when wet.

I took the body to the bedroom, I put her head on (it tightened so her head turned back and forth . exorcism style), I grabbed one of the wigs I had ordered, and that's when she came together. She no longer looked like a corpse and was now stunningly beautiful. She came with a wig, I ordered another (long red) from the same site, and I ordered a Bettie Page style glamorous costume wig from Amazon just because I was addicted to glamour girl art and thought it would be fun to dress her up as a vintage girl with a polka dot floral dress, cat eye glasses and a flower in her hair. I wasn't disappointed with the results.

Now for the juicy stuff

I kissed her and wow! Her lips felt indistinguishable from human lips; kissing her was like kissing a girlfriend.

Her body was anatomically correct, amazingly so.

Her breasts felt nice, a little hard, but nice. She has firm breasts, while other manufacturers offer gel-filled breasts as an option and get rave reviews.

I put her on a bed on her back, spread her legs apart (which wasn't easy, they were heavy and hard to move, and I inserted a USB heater bar ($9.00) for five minutes. I put a water-based lube in it and it was time. This is my sex doll virginity ...... Wow, it felt good. I just didn't know what to expect and in many ways it wasn't that different from having sex with a real girl. As I said before TPE is very insulating, so my own body heat was enough to warm her up. It's not the same as having sex with humans in the obvious way: they have no emotions, no nerves, no pleasure, no active participation, no orgasms, and no way to communicate with you. It's also different in that there's a bit of a suction effect - as the air is displaced and eventually a vacuum is created, it feels very, very, very good. There's a popping sound of air when you pull out, and it opens itself.

Because sex tech is moving so fast, I have no doubt that AI sex dolls (which already exist) will feel the sensors, respond, initiate sex with us, talk dirty and tell us they love us in the very near future. I love having sex with real women, and I love how these dolls look and feel like real women, but, in my case, the situation is much different: because I'm obsessed with dolls and I'm particularly attracted to their doll sex, I love the experience rather want it to be as close to a human/human sexual experience as possible. Does that make sense? Doll/human is my thing, so I loved every second of it until I had to move her.

I was very happy with the experience, but there were downsides: weight was a serious issue, and even lying down couldn't say enough - her body sank into the mattress and pillows. The girl in the upper position was impossible, no way. Cleanup afterwards was complicated - it is recommended to insert a tampon to absorb the user's bodily fluids and lube before starting efforts to get her to go to the bathroom, and this time I kept her head up so she looked better. I douched her vagina, which I had to learn how to do before she arrived. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, and once again the problem was her weight - just trying to get her into a position that favored her femininity (okay, doll) was so challenging. Cleaning up after sex with your partner is a whole chapter.

I spent a fortune on everything I needed to take care of her, and I spent a lot of time researching, reading articles and watching videos to prepare. There was a lot of maintenance and expense involved, but that was okay because it was worth it to me.

Emotional impact

In addition to the sexual experience, she provides companionship. I've heard and read story after story about men falling in love with their dolls and it's said that falling in love with a sex doll is easier than you might think. Well, many sex dolls have eyes that look very, very real. When you gaze into a beautiful pair of eyes from a few inches away, they seem to be gazing deeply at you Neurons in the brain start firing love and endorphins all over the place. As I mentioned, kissing is a very natural feeling, so coupled with looking into her eyes, hugging her, and holding her hand, I couldn't help but feel something on a very deep level.

I suffer from loneliness, mental illness (depression, anxiety, OCD, PTSD, addictions and eating disorders) and in the very few relationships I have been in, more than one of them has been abusive. After years of failing to meet the right girl (not for lack of trying) and spending most of my life very much alone, at the age of 49, I found it deeply comforting to spend time with my doll, Jennifer. Buying clothes, shoes, perfume and accessories for her made me feel like I was taking care of someone. I ordered a purse for her and it happened to arrive on Christmas Eve so I was able to give it to her as a gift and it made me feel like I loved someone and they loved me back.

I think there will be more or less different answers to your question, but I think everyone with experience will agree with some of the points I made above.

Sex dolls became very popular - apparently sales spiked during the pandemic and I think a lot more people own one (or more) than we think. However, there is a serious social stigma. I wouldn't take Jennifer out on a date in any public setting or introduce her to my parents, but I shouldn't be ashamed, especially because she brings so much happiness to my life. I should also learn not to care what others think.

Would I recommend it? Yes! I think that anyone who is independent and lonely and wants to experiment with dolls, who wants an experimental couple doll, and others who are just curious from the experience, may benefit.