Let me start off with introducing myself. My name is Josh and I am 24 years old. It all started back when I was 12 years old. I first tried marijuana when I was 12 and I liked it so much, I started smoking it everyday.

By the time I started 10th grade I started selling marijuana so I could get mine for free and make a couple dollars while doing it. From there I started selling more and more of it. By the time I was getting two pounds at a time, I started using ecstasy and cocaine everyday. Then stared selling ecstasy and cocaine along with marijuana, I was 16 years old at this time.

I was making great money doing it and I got all the free drugs I ever wanted. By the time I was 17 years old, I was living with my girlfriend on my own and we were both using a lot everyday. I was having so much traffic coming to my trailer, it was crazy. I thought I was going to get caught by the cops, I was so paranoid.

By the time I turned 18 years old my friend brought over some 60mg morphine pills and I snorted a couple, that had to have been I worst thing I have ever did. I loved it so much even more than cocaine and ecstasy. So I started to spend my money I was making on morphine and a lot of it. Not long after that my same friend brought over some morphine and needles. He was showing me how to shoot up morphine and he was doing it in front of me, so I tried it. The rush it gave me was so amazing that I wouldn't do it any other way.

It didn't take long to spend the money I was making from selling drugs. I ended up spending all the money I made and I didn't have enough money to buy more drugs to sell, so I ended up stop selling drugs cause I couldn't afford them. I was so addicted to morphine that I couldn't go a day without it or I would get really sick (dope sick). I started trying oxycotin, dilaudid, heroin, valium, ativan, klonopin, fentanyl patches and many more. But morphine was my drug of choice.

When I turned 19 years old, my girlfriend and I broke up because of the amount of drugs we were using. I ended up losing my job and I couldn't hold a job cause if I didn't have any pills I would get sick and call into work. So I lost mt trailer and ended up moving back in with my parents house. My parents didn't know the extent of my drug use and I wanted to keep it that way. But they started to get suspicious because I was getting sick all the time. If I didn't have any drugs for the next day I would get really sick.

I started to steal money from my parents so I could get drugs. I would also steal tools, rings or anything I could make money on to buy drugs. My parents ended up finding out that I was stealing from them and that I was using needles daily. I hurt them so bad and I didn't even care, which was the sad part. So they ended up kicking me out of there house and I ended up living with one of my using buddies.

One night I was using heroin, morphine and ativan together and a lot of it, the last thing I remembered I was going to bed. When I woke up I was in jail and had no idea why I was there. Come to find out I never went to bed, I ended up getting in my car and driving, still don't know where I was going. But anyway I had a couple other drivers on the road report me because I was driving 15 mph in the opposite lane. This was around 5 am. The cops ended up finding me and my car in a parking lot about 5 miles from where I was staying. The police report said I was slurring my speech, I couldn't stand up straight and that I looked half dead. So they ended up charging me with a O.W.I.

I sat in jail for two days sleeping the whole time pretty much and got a pr bond. By that time my parents find out about everything I took from them and they were so mad at me for stealing from them and getting in trouble with the law, it was so hard on them. But I was still using drugs when I got out of jail. I even had eight drug tests a month and I didn't care at all, I failed every drug test I took. I ended up getting my bond revoked and maxing out on that charge, I sat 93 days in jail.

When I got out of jail I tried staying clean, but that only lasted a month and I was right back shooting morphine again and going back to my old ways. It kept getting worse and worse, I ended up selling my car for drug money. I started to steal from my parents again even though they let me move back in their house. https://dorganicchems.com/
of course they caught on and kicked me out again. So I started to live with my using buddy once again. I still had no job and no money.

By the time I was 23 years old I was still living with my using buddy and shooting morphine everyday. I started to steal from stores more and more. And then I got charged with a Break and Entry, which is a 10 year felony. So once again I was sitting in jail on a $50,000 cash bond, so I wasn't going anywhere.

My first two weeks in jail I was so dope sick. We were a loud one 30 minute visit every Saturday. And my parents were the only ones to come and visit me after all I put them through, showed me who my real friends were. The only things there is do in jail are watch TV, play cards and work out. I was doing all of them everyday. By the time I went to court for sentencing, I had 60 days served in jail. I got sentenced to 6 months in jail with 3 years probation, which isn't bad at all. I really wanted to quit doing drugs this time and I knew it was going to be a lot of work, I mean I was shooting drugs for 5 years.

So by the time I got out of jail I put myself in Dakoske Treatment Center which was a 28 day stay. Dakoske sure taught me a lot and helped me a lot. So I did my 28 days there and my parents once again let me move in. I have been clean ever since and I feel great. I have a job, I pay my bills on time and I almost have my drivers license back. I go to at least two NA meetings a week. And I can't tell you how good it feels to have your parents proud of you, It feels great.

Well that's my life story and I hope you got something from reading it. It goes to show you that there is hope. I hit rock bottom and I'm climbing out of that hole at a great rate. So it's not to late to quit! If I can do it, then you can do it!