I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.



Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I could be this for the wrong reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems a course in miracles. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.



Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away did it coalesce.



That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have enable you to see inside. Don't want it troubling your mind, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider something that I'd said that I felt regret for.



Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I'd in arriving at the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere with its residents'satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.



This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.



You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.