I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don't feel alone.



Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I would be doing this for the incorrect reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.



Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to fairly share was not yet clear in those days; only on the drive away did it coalesce.



That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. Don't are interested troubling your mind, won't you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider whatever I had stated that I felt regret for.



Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents'satisfaction, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.



This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.



You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can't consider them right now.
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