I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in an extended while, I don't feel alone.



Section of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a means in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.



Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I'm about to talk about wasn't yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.acim

 

That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have allow you to see inside. Don't are interested troubling your brain, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of anything that I had stated that I felt regret for.



Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents'reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.



This fear left my awareness right after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief has been (has been?) released.



You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.