I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this chance to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a long while, I do not feel alone.



Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I could be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.



Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to generally share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.



That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have let you see inside. Don't are interested troubling the mind, won't you allow it to be?” This confused me as I really could not think of something that I'd stated that I felt regret for.a course in miracles

 

Eventually, the phrase, “don't are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I'd in arriving at the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere with its residents'satisfaction, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.



This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.



There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.